I'm sorry I haven't been updating this thing a lot lately; this year's winter is going to be extreme suck and whilst everyone will be (and some are already) posting about their festive gatherings and Christmas wishlists, I'll probably be sulking in some forgotten corner in my room all by myself. ROFL.
Nah, I don't really look forward to spending my favourite season like that even though I know, and I just fucking know, it will be so, so much for my heart to take when December finally comes. As much as I want my presents, I also want a life.

Last night was a complete mess. I, am a complete mess. But stop fucking blaming yourself and saying that you, are the one, who made me into this shit of a mess I am right now -- you are not. And don't even attempt to get involved with this whole issue when you, you, you have got so much assery to handle already, and you clearly, are not 'okay' yourself - you shouldn't have to put up with this at all. Before you worry about me, fix things up for yourself first. Putting up that strong front isn't going to get you anywhere, you idiot. >:

I hate you I hate you I hate you. ;-;♥ You made me cry and smile at the same time, you faggot. You made me realize that I wasn't all alone and that even if it's just one person, just you, there's someone out there that fucking cares. I hate you so much for being so wonderful, like the true prince you are at heart♥, and for making me feel so protected and loved because fuck, I don't even deserve this and yet you're spoiling me with it all. ;____;

What am I going to do without youuu, from now on. What the fuck am I going to doooo. Now I don't even know what I'm saying, fuuuuuck, can I just swear through this whole thing. I said I was going to type an essay but all I'm doing is crying buckets and -- auuuugh, thank you for all the beautiful memories and thank you for pampering me with love till the very end.♥ I can never thank you enough so I will leave the rest for when I return.

I love you so much I could cry all night long. ;-;

But still, thank you so much for being there for me.♥

I'm so happy that almost everyone dressed up as something last Friday because we had a Dress Up Day in school :D♥ It was amazing to see all the costumes that weren't a little -- different from usual? -- Because I'm so used to looking at anime and manga cosplays but seeing things like Mario and Luigi, Tommy and Jenni with swapped clothing (mind you, Tommy looked amazing with that F-cup bra Jenni lent to him), and also the cute animal suits -- Ufufufu~♥♥
And our cos group? We celebrated the last day of October (our Geass month) with -- lol, Geass. I'm surprised I haven't gotten utterly sick of it yet...

The day before was swimming gala and after that, we actually wanted to have a group photoshoot but it was extreme FAIL because everyone was too busy goofing around and I wanted to hide away from the camera so bad... and we stayed in the shopping mall too long that by the time we got to my place -- we were 2 hours behind on our schedule. Bad organization is bad. >:

Anyway! Friday afterschool, we went dinnering at the usual Japanese restaurant and with just our Geass group, we were already a total of seven weird people, so the additional six weird people that came afterwards made us a table of thirteen. 8D; Wasn't that bad but the Japanese restaurant probably didn't expect that big a group to trample in wearing ridiculously chunky-looking pieces of clothing. -laughs- Still, we had fuckloads of fun (as usual) and here are some of the pics♥


( I love you guys so much, mannn.♥ )


Note: Replies will be slow because I'm going through uhh -- problems again. >___>; I'll try to force ask Suzaku to get an LJ account so he can help me with a bit of uploading and everything 'cause that bitch has too much time. >F

As most of you guess correctly from my last entry, that grey wig was indeed meant to be for my upcoming Gokudera cos! (Some people guessed Allen/Zero -- shitttt, I hope I don't fail this, really...) I'm probably only going to do this twice at most; once with the usual REBORN! group (because Kim and Denton are gay and wouldn't BL with each other no matter what I said to them, so Denton just kicked me off being Hibari and now I've miraculously turned into a Gokuderaaa...) and maybe once more when I help out at midnightbanshee's table during the RG con, but after that -- THE END. NO MORE GOWADERAS.

( Did make-up test with wig and so, two pictures! )

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Today was like -- extreme webcamming day or something. In the afternoon, me and Aya were webcamming as GokuTsuna and Suzalulu (because I finished cutting my new Lelouch wig♥ after burning the old one with a hair dryer) and then just thirty minutes ago, I was webcamming with 小Hei whilst chatting on the phone.
Screencapped lots of gaytarded moments ;D♥

( Suzalulu Cam )

So that was that. 8D
And then we have --


( Hei & Fi Cam )

This horrible bitch is going to be leaving me all alone in Hong Kong to rot in my own depression and has also decided to depart to Australia three days before my birthday. >:
I won't talk about it now, because when the day comes, I'll probably be ranting ten times more (or the contrary, because even now, I can't seem to find the right words to say) so I'll leave it to then -- but augh. I hate you, I hate you, I hate you. I hate you so much, Ming Zhe. ;-;♥♥♥ Our last wedding anniversary in Halloween, our last Christmas -- and I don't even get to celebrate my seventeenth birthday with you. How much does that suck.

I have thought of making this into two separate posts but figured it would just be annoying on everyone's friends page and so, I've combined them together and hopefully it won't kill your interwabz with all the gayness and photos. D:

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Last Wednesday (22nd October): Moses said he had 'things' to talk to me about and wanted to have this conversation face-to-face. So that retard came over to my house and no longer than a mere five minutes of getting into SRS BIZNESS, he pranced off to be gay with his polaroid camera and my new Canon camera. He's hopeless, completely hopeless... I actually really like the effect of polaroid cameras because no matter how bad your skin is, the outcome is always smooth and wonderful andbut -- his camera is mo'fucking insane. So much that it made me WHITE, like paper. Thanks to that, I officially looked like I'm haunting him as a sick ghost. And because I don't really want you to see how horrible that photo is, you can just look at the overview here. (The picture I'm talking about is the one on the bottom left.)

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Last Friday (24th October): Went out to have dinner with Ming Zhe, Ruth, Vista, Ryan, Dickson and his girlfriend Amanda at Ruby Tuesdays in Shatin. It was pretty brave for all of us to go there and eat when none of us really had that much cash in hand (hah, I wonder why) and we didn't have the card with us either. SCREWED. But we managed to fill our stomachs and actually dig out enough from our wallets to pay the grand total and wandered off to be gay elsewhere. T'was a very interesting dinner though. 8D

( Pictures... )

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Saturday (25th October): Had an early joint birthday party for my mom and my aunt. My dogs were overjoyed and clambered all over me when we sang 'Happy Birthday' and so I've gotten myself a ginormous scratch on my thigh - and I still don't know whether it was Zai-zai or Yuki! >F

( The scratch of dooooom )

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Sunday (26th October): An extremely tiring day for me because I had to do three double pages in my artbook in preparation for my first two compositions and also to write up this disgusting Psychology IA essay that was aaaaallll handed in today. :D♥ Because of my workload, my parents decided it was completely okay to leave me alone in the house with NO FOOD AT ALL (till they brought me some at 4PM) -- and in between this time of starvation I finished cutting another wig!

( A hint to my next cosplay... you won't even believe it. )